Strong Words, Softly Spoken

Hello all,

I’m in need of ALOT of zombies for a 25 minute film called “Urban Decay.” We will be shooting in Birmingham, AL the weekends of January 10 and January 17. All principals have been cast, but we’re looking for anyone who wants to come hang out and get all dressed up in zombie attire and makeup and have alot of fun.

We also need people to be gang members as well. You can be either/or….or both.

Costumes need to be creative. Zombies can be anyone…the janitor….a circus clown….a postal worker…whatever you can come up with. The idea is to have fun with it and make your zombie character your own. But please use clothing you don’t mind possibly never wearing again.

We need as many as possible so tell all your friends and have anyone who is interested email me at siobhan@brightheadproductions.com.

Pass this on!

Thanks,

Siobhan

My company always sponsors a toy drive every year for Toys for Tots. This year is an exceptionally hard year economically, which makes the drive even bigger and more of a struggle to reach our goal. There are over 10,000 children in the Central Alabama region alone who need toys this year! If you’d like to help a child celebrate Christmas, please just take an unwrapped toy to any local Chevrolet Dealership, Captain D’s or Applebees locations. We really need all the help we can get this year. It doesn’t have to be expensive…any toy at all will be a big help.

Also, come out to the Iron Horse Cafe in Hoover on 12/18 for the Toys for Tots wrap-up party from 5:30pm-8:00pm. Cover charge waved with unwrapped toy. Please call or email me for more information.

Back in September during the Sidewalk Film Festival, Alex saw a documentary called “Dear Zachary: A Letter to His Son About His Father.” I met them all outside as they were coming out, because I didn’t get there early enough to see it, and everyone was speechless. Alex hasn’t stopped talking about it. Sure enough, MSNBC decided to air it and he made me promise to watch it. I just did….and I, too, find myself speechless.

I’d really love to say more, but I’m afraid that my discussing it here might spoil it for some people. So I’m only going to say that however you have to, find a way to watch it. Don’t look up any information on it. Don’t read any spoilers. The less you know, the better. Just watch it. Find it…and watch it. And prepared to be numb.

Here’s the trailer:

MSNBC re-airs it Sunday 12/14 at 3pm Central time. Set your DVR’s and if you don’t have a DVR, drag out your VCR and do it up old school, but watch it. You’ll be a better person for it. And you won’t forget it. Ever.

So it appears I awakened the monster with my last post and Jenn spent her morning doing more research about sun signs, which got me doing more research. Apparently, your rising sign and moon sign are just as important. The rising sign is apparently how others see you. The moon sign is your inner self…how you feel on the inside. It just so happens that both my rising sign and moon sign are in Capricorn.

Before I post what it says, I went back to my last post and bolded the parts that I feel were extremely accurate. I’ll do the same for this. If you ever want to know who I am…you’ll learn more about me by reading this than by actually talking to me. And for those of you who think this is crap…PHOOEY!

Rising Sign: Capricorn
Capricorn on the rise produces a personality that is serious, prudent and patient. Saturn rules Capricorn, and becomes the ruling planet in your chart. The Saturn influence suggests the most responsible type of personality, and gives a “never say die” approach to life that is the essence of your nature.
The Capricorn Ascendant also gives a reserve and a restraint that can make you seem very austere and even melancholy. You appear critical and cold because of an ethical and righteous attitude that duty must be done. This is a complex sign.

You seem aloof and remote, yet an elegant quality may conceal an inherent shyness. You are somewhat timid, and you may even suffer from feelings of inadequacy, especially in the early years of your life. Very straight-laced and proper behavior is sometimes a facade hiding a sense of insecurity or of feelings that you are unwanted or unappreciated.

You may be somewhat a workaholic and expect those around you to share such dedication to duty. You can be judgmental of others on a variety of issues. This often strains personal relationships. Because you’re such a perfectionist with your work, you procrastinate a great deal. You are conservative in your actions and habits, and will remain this way even if you accumulate considerable wealth.

Usually, Capricorn on the rise produces an ambitious person. Yet you have more concern with your degree of prestige and status, than with the amount of money that achieving your goals may eventually bring. You seem very serious and old before your time while you are in your youth; even as a child, you are likely to be very self-sufficient. Sometimes responsibility is assumed at an early age.

Like the Capricorn symbol, the Mountain Goat, you climb to the top in a very slow, sure-footed way, always staying on solid ground and taking your sweet time about it. There is much stability in your makeup and you rarely become discouraged, even when you are faced with frequent setbacks and roadblocks. The combination of your superior organizing ability and overwhelming determination assures your eventual, if sometimes delayed, success.

Moon Sign: Capricorn
Serious and responsible, you try to carry the world on your shoulders and rarely let others know that you need help and support. You deny or ignore your own emotional needs and feel that others will not accept you if you appear “weak”. You are especially uncomfortable with emotional dependency, and will tell yourself and others (even children) not to be a “baby”. You need to accept that no one is self-sufficient all the time, and to be gentler with your “childish” emotional needs and wants. To others, you may appear to be rather hard-nosed and tough, with a businesslike attitude toward their personal concerns and feelings. Actually, no one is a truer friend. Your feelings and loyalties run deep, but you often do not let people know how much you care. You also need to learn to relax, enjoy yourself, and play sometimes.

Let me just say that the description for the moon sign is more accurate about me than anything I’ve ever read before. Every single sentence describes me 100%. Every single word is accurate. EVERY WORD.

Several months ago, my friend Jenn sent me this. Upon first reading I didn’t agree with very much because it made me seem like a frigid bitch…but I’ve just re-read the whole thing and I can actually see where a good bit of this applies to me. Some not so much…some not at all..but some…right on the money.

I’ve put in bold the parts that I completely agree with.

I’m mostly just posting this here so I don’t lose it.

The SCORPIO Woman
“Consider anything only don’t cry . . .”

The female Scorpio has a deep, mysterious beauty. She’s magnetic, proud
and totally confident. But she has one secret regret. She was not born a
man.

I can almost feel the heat from here when Pluto women hear about that
revelation. There’s not a Scorpio female alive who doesn’t think she’s
all woman, and you may wonder what I’m talking about yourself, if you’re
in love with one. This girl certainly has enough glamour, and she’s
enormously seductive. But I didn’t say she looked like a boy, nor did I
intend to imply she doesn’t do a bang-up job of being a female. It’s
just that, unconsciously, she would prefer to be a man. Less
restriction-more oppor-tunity. It’s the one secret she even hides from
herself, and seeing it exposed won’t sit well with her.

Once the Scorpio girl has figured out the difference be-tween blue
booties and pink booties, she’ll resign herself to wearing the pink
ones, because she’s fabulous at mak-ing the best out of a situation. But
pink is not her natural color. The true shade of her nature is dark
maroon, or deep wine-red, not a female color at all. However, to give
her proper tribute, she’s able to make you think it is. I know one who’s
great at pretending to be a fragile, fluffy kitten. She purrs so
contentedly most men guess she’s an ultra-feminine Piscean. They topple
into her trap and wake up later, sadder but wiser. She is no kitten.

Scorpio women have a scornful contempt for members of their sex who flop
in the roles of sweetheart, wife and mother, once they’re stuck with the
parts. A Pluto girl will control her desire to dominate, while she gives
a glorious performance of womanhood, and she’ll do it with more finess
than the masculine Aries, Leo or Sagittarius girl. At least she’ll do it
during courtship. There may be a few cases when the unsuspecting male
gets a rude sur-prise after he shakes the rice out of his shoes and the
illusions out of his eyes. Unlike the Mars female, for example, a
Scorpio will subdue her drive and magnetize a man with the heavy perfume
of her exotic glance as she allows him to use his lighter to ignite her
cigarette. That’s far sexier than aggressively striking a match herself
and blowing the smoke in his face, and she knows it. She knows lots
more. Another girl might rush headlong into your arms and shout her love
from the rooftops. The Scorpio girl walks toward you slowly,
seductively, and silently delivers her private message. It’s puzzling,
but these women can look seductive in jeans, jodhpurs or basketball
shoes. Maybe it’s her husky voice that creates the image. I know one who
wore a baseball cap (honest) the entire time her future husband was
courting her, and she spent a lot of time talking about batting
averages. But she was as seductive as Mata Hari just the same, and she
got her man. (He was hypnotized, as usual.)

You can give her a tumble, but she won’t fall all over herself reacting
to your overtures. Don’t expect her to bat long, sweeping eyelashes at
you, and adore you with blind devotion. Lots of female Scorpios are
tomboys with stubby eyelashes. Besides, with those beautiful, mysterious
eyes that can read your mind so clearly, she doesn’t need any extra
trimming. Whisper something romantic that would melt another girl out of
her senses, and the Scorpio girl will simply give you an intense,
penetrating look that will see right straight through to your real
intentions. She’s a human X-ray machine, so don’t flirt. Unless you mean
business, you’re wasting her time and insulting her. I wouldn’t advise
you to insult a Scorpio. It’s just not healthy. If you don’t know what I
mean, ask someone who has. He may have some stories to tell that will
curl your hair.

I’m well aware that this dangerous femme fatale can hide her power of
retaliation with a tremulous smile, gentle mannerisms, and the most
breathless voice this side of an angel. But astrologers are expected to
be up on these things. It’s more important for you to be well aware.
After all, you’re the one who’s seeking to tame her-or protect your-self
against her-whichever. Probably both.

You can be sure that heaven certainly has no fury like that of a Scorpio
woman who’s lost her normal steady control over those inward, seething,
Pluto emotions. She can be overbearing and domineering, sarcastic and
frigid- then turn as hot as an oven at 500 degrees Fahrenheit. She can
hate with bitter venom and love with fierce abandon. She can shriek like
a furious banshee or whisper like an affectionate turtle dove. One thing
you can be sure of- she’s never wishy-washy.

The Scorpio woman has a disconcerting gift that can make icy shivers run
up your spine. It’s a peculiar form of black magic, and she weaves it so
expertly it can seem like real witchcraft. You have very little chance
to escape, once her eyes meet yours. Because of her mystical sixth
sense, she can often recognize a future mate at first glance, and
somehow, she’ll transfer this perception instantly. You’ll have one of
two reactions. You’ll be hopelessly caught in her spell, and down you’ll
go, in a dizzy spin toward surrender, or you’ll be scared right out of
your socks, and feel like running for help. What’s your rush? Stay
around awhile. You might find out what life is all about. She knows. And
she’ll teach you. Anyway, you should be flattered that she considers you
worth that strange gaze. A Scorpio woman can’t excuse weakness in a man.
She looks for ambition and courage. She wants a mate who can dominate
her and make her proud, without disturbing her secret individuality.
He’s expected to be strong, masculine and better-looking than average. A
high degree of intelligence is required to match her own excellent mind,
plus more than a passing acquaintance with abstract, philosophical
wisdom. So put your socks back on and practice a superior smirk.
Everybody you know will think you’re pretty super to have her staring at
you. The men and women both. It could open new vistas, when you think
about it. Your personal stock should zoom several points higher than it
was before she noticed you.

Having once achieved closeness with a female Scorpio, you can be
positive you’re a unique and unusual man. You can also be sure that her
love for you is unmatched by any you’ll ever experience-and you can take
that in sev-eral ways. You’ll be the most important interest in her
life. If she’s a typical Pluto girl, she’ll boost you loyally, and try
to please you with passionate intensity. If you’re too hard to please,
she’ll show her frustration with pas-sionate attempts to conquer your
disinterest.

The word “passionate” probably caught your eye. Most men have heard
exciting rumors about the passion of November females. It’s true. She’s
brimming over inside with passion, though it’s kept under rigid control
by a poised, frosty attitude toward strangers, and a surface smoothness
suggestive of black velvet. But the male sex is too inclined to relate
passion strictly to romantic action; and that’s selling her short,
because Pluto’s definition of the word is far more encompassing. It’s
involved with her feelings about everything she touches. She’s never
just slightly interested. It’s impossible for her to be detached or
casual. She seldom likes or dislikes a play, a book, re-ligion,
furniture or people. She either bitterly resents or she intensely
worships. If one of these two passions can’t be aroused, then she
totally ignores, with ice around the edges. Yet, through it all, she’ll
remain essentially un-touched by emotional storms, judging at least from
her placid exterior, which always drapes itself around her after each
minor or major nuclear explosion. It may be difficult to convince your
mother-in-law that her daughter really broke all those dishes and tore
all those draperies to shreds after the fury has subsided and her black
velvet poise has returned. People may look at you as if you’re a
character assassinator. What do you mean? Shame on you, accusing that
cool, controlled, lovely girl of such a temper. You have my sympathy, if
that’s any help.

She has such fabulous virtues, you might know her vices wouldn’t be
skimpy, either. So think about her good points. All right, then, think
about her good points after that lump on your head has healed.

Because she’s drawn to investigation of the shadows, she may at first
seem to be tempting, forbidden fruit, and the deep, strange expression
in her eyes intensifies the impres-sion. It’s true that the Scorpio girl
sometimes wanders into dangerous waters in her efforts to penetrate
life, and since there’s not the slightest trace of fear in her (unless
she has an affliction to her Moon, and is full of nameless terrors), her
search may indeed take her into some weird byways. But the typical
Scorpio will emerge from any discovery still strong and pure. If she
allows the journey to soil her inner spirit, Pluto will punish her with
anguished remorse and guilt; yet she can still call on her great
strength of character to rise again, like the phoenix, from the ashes of
her experiments. In Kahlil Gibran’s writings, the Prophet replies, in
answer to a question about Evil, “Of the Good in you I can speak, but
not of the Evil. For what is Evil but Good-tortured by its own hunger
and thirst? When Good is hungry, it seeks food, even in dark caves, and
when it thirsts, it drinks even of dead waters.” A perfect description
of Scorpio.

She may have been a fascinated spectator to a million human foibles, and
she may have tasted a variety of ex-periences to savor the knowledge.
But she can mysteriously emerge from all her explorations above
suspicion, and still superior to almost every other woman you know. She
could be the keeper of quite a few secrets. It’s surprising how many
dark deeds are confessed to Scorpios, though their own inner lives are
marked: “Private-Keep Out.” She likes to hear secrets, but she’ll seldom
tell anything any-one has confided in her, not even to you (unless
there’s an afflicted Mercury in her natal chart). You can also expect
her to have a stack of secrets that relate to her personally, and don’t
try to pry them out of her. There’s a private part to this woman you’ll
never touch, a part of her mind and soul that belongs strictly to her,
and there’s absolutely no trespassing there. She’s not untruthful, in
fact she’s more oftien too brutally honest, yet there will always be
those special thoughts and feelings she won’t confide to you or anyone
else. (This is more me than anything else here)

A Scorpio woman will be incredibly loyal to those she finds strong and
deserving, but the weak ones will never be honored by her glance. Her
dignity in human relation-ships can make her seem aloof and snobbish. In
a way, she definitely is, because she practices a personal caste system,
and it’s more clearly marked than that of her Leo and Capricorn sisters.
All Scorpios are highly selective in friendships. They’ll keep the
worthy companions through an entire lifetime, and freeze the shallow,
the common or the unworthy. There’s an immense store of perseverance and
determination buried in the nature of a Scorpio woman, and any time she
chooses, she can call on these to help her master the excesses which may
tempt her, from drink and drugs to self-destructive, ruthless revenge
and dangerous depression. Sooner or later, she’ll probably investigate
some form of the occult, and ancient mysteries and unseen worlds will
eventually have her respect, though Scorpios can range all the way from
religious fervor to total atheism during a lifetime.

A Scorpio woman need not be a legal wife to give wifely love and
devotion. If circumstances beyond your control make marriage impossible,
she’ll love you from hell to breakfast, and not give a hang what the
neighbors think. In most such unusual situations, the relationship is
real and honest above and beyond the shallow, selfish love of many a
legitimate marriage. The hypocrisies of society will never keep this
courageous woman from seeking the sun. She answers to no law but her
own, and in her Pluto heart, she has more total understanding of the vow
“till death do us part” than half the brides who blissfully murmur the
phrase.

Despite her own strong individualism, the typical Scorpio girl will let
her man be the boss. Instead of overshadowing him with her force and
drive, she’ll apply her talents to help him attain his goals. Your
future will be important to her, and she’s not likely to insist on
retaining her own career after marriage (unless you’ve disappointed her
deeply or a second job is needed in a temporary domestic crisis). She
may fight you wildly in private, but she’ll defend you fiercely in
public. She won’t stand for anyone maligning you or taking advantage of
you. Those who try will feel the lash of her righteous anger. Your
happiness will always come first. Unless there are adverse aspects to
her Sun sign or ascendant in her natal chart, she’ll pa-tiently help you
persevere until you get what you want, and while you’re getting it, she
won’t whine or complain or become restless, though she might turn a
little bitter if you lose your courage on the way. She’ll expect you to
aim as high as your abilities will reach. Anything less may bring on
some pretty sarcastic taunts and reproaches, especially if she has an
afflicted Mercury.

Scorpio women love their homes, which usually shine with cleanliness,
taste and comfort. Meals are served on time, and things are generally
under control. If the opposite is true, something is making her mighty
unhappy, because her natural inclination is to beauty and system. To the
typical Scorpio woman spring cleaning is like vacation. They love to dig
into comers to see what they can find. Just be careful she doesn’t find
any cryptic notes that smell of perfume in your old jacket pockets when
she’s clearing out the closets. Scorpio is unreasonably suspicious, even
when there’s no basis for suspicion, so you can imagine what happens
when she finds a real clue to possible in-fidelity. Picture the shape of
a mushroom cloud and you’ll get a general idea of what may happen,
figuratively speak-ing. It’s no good being suspicious of her, no matter
how many opportunities arise; and there will be a goodly num-ber of
them, because she never exposes her deepest feel-ings. Naturally, this
can arouse a few questions on your part. Just swallow them, along with
the lump in your throat. Like that locked chest or drawer she’s had
since childhood, certain things about her are off limits. It will get
you nowhere to probe. I realize fully that it isn’t fair. So does she.
But that doesn’t change things a bit. That’s the way it is. Take her or
leave her. You’ll probably take her. It’s almost impossible to leave
her. If nothing else, she’ll haunt you the rest of your life. Adjusting
to the idiosyncrasies of her nature is easier than suffering the
nightmares that will surely result if you walk away. No one walks away
from a Scorpio. Not really. Didn’t you know that? Those who have tried
can educate you. Any-way, you have a very special woman.

As much as she needs the security of home roots, shell move if it’s
necessary to your career, and without any visible flinching at the
uprooting. She makes an excellent wife for an army or navy man and a
real jewel for a politician. There’s no one she can’t see through, no
de-ception that escapes her. A Scorpio woman can tell you exactly who
can be trusted and which ones you have to watch. The Pisces wife has the
same ability, but she may be too soft to criticize, too ready to make
excuses for the failings of others. Not so the Scorpio female. In fact,
she may frequently have to check her sharp tongue and tone down her
brutal analysis.

In the budget department, Scorpio women are complete-ly unpredictable.
She can scrimp and save and pinch a penny until it bends double, then
have a sudden spell of being magnificently extravagant. One thing is
sure. She’ll enjoy money, whether she saves it in an old shoe or spends
it on luxury. But this woman always leans heavily toward prestige, and
she won’t let cash compromise that. She’ll be satisfied if you choose a
smaller income, as long as it insures that you are your own boss, with
the potential to rise to become somebody of influence, Scorpio females
like power, and they will sacrifice much for it. Your power will do,
because Pluto allows her to be adept at living vicarious-ly through
others when it suits her. Remember that al-though she’ll sacrifice and
put up with very little for a planned goal, she’s too proud to live amid
shabby sur-roundings forever, and she’ll become mighty sour and
dis-contented if she’s forced to do so for an unreasonable length of
time. She’ll either try to force a change in the family fortunes after a
certain period, or she’ll gradually retreat into the dismal world of the
gray lizard, outwardly accepting and almost seeming to enjoy poverty,
but in-wardly intensely bitter.

She’ll be possessive but she won’t want to be possessed. One of the
worst traits of both male and female Scorpios is a refusal to see any
viewpoint but their own when the emotions are involved. It takes weeks
of introspection to bring them around to a semblance of humility. Her
natural interest in the opposite sex, even if it remains platonic, may
give you as much reason to be jealous of her as she is of you. She’ll
probably fascinate every male in sight on oc-casion, and you may have to
sit by while they’re mesmer-ized. It seldom leads to anything serious,
but it can cause some uncomfortable moments. It can also lead to some
explosive disagreements. In the heat of battle, it pays to remember that
her compulsion to even the score usually makes her the winner in any
kind of skirmish. She gets the last word. If you tell her a lie, she may
tell two. If you stubbornly refuse to kiss her good-bye in the morning
after a tiff, she may refuse to kiss you goodnight for a month. Just let
your mother (or anybody’s mother) criti-cize her cooking, and the
Scorpio woman may forget to invite her to dinner for several Sundays in
a row. An acci-dental injury, however, she’ll forgive, if she knows it’s
unintentional. The Scorpio sense of justice is as strong as the sense of
revenge. Most people forget this. She’ll remember every kindness and
give you back double for that, too. It works both ways.

With the children, her expression of love may lack a cer-tain tenderness
and open demonstration, but the youngsters will probably sense her deep
devotion and feel emotionally secure anyway. A Scorpio mother won’t let
the talents of her children go unnoticed or gather dust. She’ll spend
many an hour encouraging them toward higher goals, and be willing to
provide any support they need. Her offspring will find her strong and
helpful when youthful problems arise, because her knowledge of human
nature makes her a wise counselor. She’ll teach them to meet
difficulties with her own courage. But she can be bund to their faults,
an attitude which can naturally cause a lot of trouble if it isn’t
recognized and checked in time. Anyone she imagines is a threat to the
happiness of her children, in any way, however small, will be crushed,
and I’m afraid that in-cludes her husband. She won’t appreciate it if
he’s stricter with them than she thinks he ought to be.

A Scorpio woman will sometimes nearly drown you in her passion for
living, yet in a real storm, her cool, calm reason and steely strength
will be a life raft. Though she works her magic in strange and secret
ways, her haunting eyes will always gaze at you with basic honesty, even
while she remains just beyond the reach of human under-standing. She’s a
little dangerous, perhaps, but undeniably exciting. Let other husbands
cope with the flighty girls. You’ve known the compelling mystery of a
lovely witch who brews a pretty good cup of tea and never bums your
toast. (Well, almost never.) When the cup is empty, let her read the tea
leaves for you. She can-if she wants to.

You mean you didn’t know? I told you there are things she keeps to
herself….